Long Day

My Dad is still in the hospital. They are running more tests then you can imagine. We are going to get to the bottom of this. He is feeling a little bit better today, June 17th. We are still waiting for some more of his tests results to come back, and from there we will know what course of action we need to take. My Dad and I will be dancing again.

Happy Fathers Day, Dad

This is to my Dad.
Dad you are the most amazing man I know.
I have never felt scared, insecure, poor, unwanted, unappreciated, lost or ugly, when I am with you.
You are the first male role model that every daughter should be lucky enough to have.
I was the LUCKY one.
I can't even imagine a more loving, giving, smarter man then you.
You have raised me to be the women I have become, and prepared me to be a great mom to my three sons.
With all that I have learned from you, my boy's will become men, for everything that you taught me I'm passing down to them.
It may not happen right away, they have a ways to go.
But having you as part of them I know I've raised them well.
So give them time and watch them grow into the men that they will be.
Because to follow in your footsteps will be the greatest HONOR for me.
Dad I love you more then you will ever know. You are my Hero, You are my Soul. A gift that I will pass along to raise my son's to men. So the women that they will one day love will love them just like me. The daughters that they may one day have will be as Lucky as me.
Love you Dad, Happy Fathers Day. Me

One down, two to go...

Well he did it. It, being graduated. Finally, this milestone is behind us. Nico managed to pull this one off by the hair on my chinny, chin, chin. (Damn that's a lot of hair) I know TMI. Anyhow,it was a very proud moment for our family and Nico was glad to get this one over and done with. Yay! So on to newer and broader horizons ( that newer meaning, college, broader being a job, and horizons well you know, REALITY! He is feeling and acting a bit more grown-up (boys are slower to show signs of this maturity thing way before most girl's) and he knows what's expected out of him, well sorta. I'm still not sure what I want to be when I grow up! For now I'm just letting him chill, that is at least until Monday morning when he has to get up and go job hunting. LOL! I sound way to happy about that part. So here is a picture I took of Nico and his Poppy together after graduation. My dad said it was one of the happiest moments of his life. Me too, well all of us.

School Orientation

OK get this. Tonight was my twin boy's school orientation, you know open house, slide show, Q&A, standing room only, meet the teachers and of course don't blurt anything out of your mouth that comes into your mind. (That would be just Rand and I) So like I said standing room only, planned our whole day around this meeting. Have all our T's crossed and our I's dotted. I took my meds. at the appropriate time, so that by the time we got there I would be just like a normal parent with their kids there, paying attention (NOT paying attention even on my meds.) just like all the other people in there. My mom and I wanted to ask questions but I behaved ,so as to not embarrass my boy's and or myself. So after about an hour of this standing room only parents asking the same questions over and over. My mom says I'll be right back and leaves the boy's and I in this room while she goes to check something out. Well not less then 10 seconds later do we see my mom poking her head into this friggin crowded room mouthing "We're in the wrong room, this is K-8th grade orientation. No wonder my boy's were the biggest kids there. So of course just as were leaving this room to go next store to the High School orientation we hear everyone clapping and thanking the speaker for all the much needed information for the upcoming school year. So as were trying to go in we are being stampeded by all the other parents and students who managed to get to the correct room and have all their questions answered, while my boy's and I just looked around the room we were in making all kinds of comments, talking under our breathe telling people(under our breath, to stop asking the same darn questions over and over. Look at us were in the friggin wrong room. Well after the room for the HS grades finally emptied out we were able to talk to the speaker and tell him that we are the ADHD family that missed the orientation because we were in the wrong room. I can't believe we missed the entire thing. Oh well, chaulk it up as another day in our ADHD world.

OK so I skipped a few day's.

I strayed I know. I do have the right to go into a funk. Well anyway, I'm here and I'm winging it. My oldest son is graduating next week. He picked up his cap and gown this week. The little Sh*t(well Big Sh*t) calls me up from picking up his cap and gown and tells me they wouldn't give it to him because he still needed another credit and tells me he has to go to summer school and then hangs up. I call him back immediately with my heart in my throat and I hear him whispering on the phone, Mom I'm just kidding I'm at Mammy's and I tricked her, We wanted to strangle that kid. School wasn't his forte, it was a struggle, but he did manage to pull it off. Mostly due to laziness. He is a great kid (except for that teenage mouth, sometimes) but if the trade off for my kids is OK grades and being a great kid. I'm picking the later. My Dad didn't go past the 8th grade and he retired in his early 30's. Hey all of us aren't school material. The twins made it into High School (yay) they are doing it through virtual home schooling. My mom is basically their teacher. She taught the 4 of us growing up partially through the Calvert Correspondence School. She's awesome and if it weren't for her I know my kids wouldn't have come this far in the school system. So here's to my Mom who is far more then any daughter and grand kids any person could be lucky enough to have. Dad you too, you have been the main male role model in their lives and they love you like a Dad. So too the two of you for being there for me and our kids Thanks forever. Those words don't even come close to how the four of us think and feel for you both. Love ya like you know we do.

Olivia and Me

Even though I felt like crap pretty much all day. I did have a wonderful breakfast with some of my family members. Really, the only true reason I met up with everyone was to see my new niece Olivia. Can't go anywhere without my camera (when I know I'm gonna see Olivia) I know I sound obsessed with her but she is my newest niece and her face is delicious. So here's a picture of the two of us at breakfast. Now do you understand?

Olivia sticking her tongue out at her Poppy while Mammy is holding her.

Look at my hair blowing in the fake wind.

look at my hair blowing in the fake wind.
Originally uploaded by adhd_knitting

Those were the day's my friend. I thought they'd never end. Never thought about stretchmarks, wrinkles, cellulite, sun damage, grey hairs, dry skin, readers,sagging body parts, memory loss, hearing loss, having to circle the age group on documents closest to the bottom. Well you get the picture. It all happens in a flash. There is a flip side though, you aren't expected to do as much. You can claim you didn't hear them, you can't remember if that was you who spent all that money on the credit card. You couldn't see the amount when you signed for the stuff, because you didn't have your glasses with you that day , clearly it had your signature on it. The wrinkles become laugh lines, the stretchmarks can be tattooed, the sun damage can be lasered, the grey can be covered, and you can now also know that you came through it all so far so good.

Empty Nest Syndrome

Ok It happened, the babies left the nest for good. It was such a joy everyday to go by my window and watch them grow. They were the sweetest little duo. Of course, one egg hatched 2 days before the other. So one left ahead of the other as well. I hope they will return again as this is the same nest that was used this time last year. The nest is a nice reminder that some of the greatest moments in life are free.

Time out

This poem was written due to an actual event that happened to one of my sons in his classroom, in Elementary School. He was doing what kids with ADHD, OCD, and Tourettes do sometimes in class,(they still refused to give my kid an I.E.P., they didn't have the funds and to much red tape, translation , it cuts into their bonus plans) and the teacher asked him to pick up his work and go to the class next class over, when Rand gathered his things and got up to leave the entire class applauded. Well needless to say I only heard about this the next day from his twin brother who was in the same class as Rand. He told me what happened when Rand said he didn't feel good and didn't want to go back to school the next day. I did call the school and kept Rand home for the rest of that week and that too gave me a chance to calm down and gather my thought on how to deal with this situation. I agonized for my child that entire week and came up with a poem( writing is my meditation). That following Monday I marched into school (well walked fast) and went straight to the principle and the teacher and read them the poem I had written the week of the incident and asked if I could read it to Rands class, Rand was still not going back to school until I straightened everything out. They both agreed and at the end of the school period I was able to go to his class and read the poem to all those kids, not to hurt them but to try and express how they hurt Rand. They all listened very intently and I really think most of them got it. Although there's always that one kid (kinda like mine) who walked over to me after hearing the poem and said " How can you stand being with Rand all the time" I leaned down to her level (remember these are all 4rd graders) and looked into her beautiful little face and said because he's my child. Here is the poem that I wrote and read to all of them:
http://www.addconsults.com/creative/display.php?id=33&board=creative_story

Oh what a wonderful morning Oh what a wonderful day.

What a difference a day makes. Even an hour, a minute, OK a second in my case. AHHHHHHHHHH it feels really, really good to get things done. I even slept good last night, HMMM, maybe that's the reason I feel so good today. Anyway I have been getting pretty good at this electronic world wide web stuff (who says that anymore) ie. web-sites, blogs, flickr, youtube, and some other places I know I've started to create and have yet to be able to locate at the moment. Have no fear it will definitly appear.

Until then I just keep looking and learning.

Baby needs a new pair of shoes.

OK I guess I'm very talkative today. What else is new. I just wanted to post some of the ideas that can be done with my free Baby Bootie pattern at http://www.adhdknitting.com/. Endless possibilities. Great Baby Shower gifts to knit up in a jiffy.

Oh what a wonderful morning oh what a wonderful day...

So today has been one of my bestest days in about a week. The upgraded meds. are working. I guess my doc realized we needed some med management after I repeated VAGINA about 5 times in his office. He just looked at me and said is that a tic? I said is what a tic? There's your sign! Well it is better then the last word I was hooked on for, oh let's say about a year. I actually left my house today. I had to take Rand to the orthodontist. I sat in the car and crocheted more bullion's. I just can't seem to stop making those darn things. Here's one of the bags I used the crocheted bullion's on. I really love this bag. My girlfriend of over 40 years knitted the original bag out of cashmere. She didn't like the looseness of it. So she asked me to do something with it, and well this is what I did. Oh and by the way she really just wanted me to add a strap. See what happens when you have OCD. She also told me I could groom her dog Roxie when I watched her for about a month. When Stacy returned from Europe poor Roxy was bald. My Sphynx thought it was her sister. Ok enough said.

My most beautiful newest neice

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfiVq-4j4I0
My sister-in-law just sent me this latest slide show. I can't stop watching it. So I thought I'd share it with the people that I love and care about. Enjoy

I feel better.

I have to say that I feel a lot better now, then I did earlier. Kenyetta sent me two great cards: I tried to post them for everyone to enjoy. I guess I did something wrong. If you want to view I guess you'll have to copy and paste. Sorry but they are funny and cute.

http://www.hallmark.com/ECardWeb/ECV.jsp?a=EG0983982853292M263049101Y&product_id=

http://www.hallmark.com/ECardWeb/ECV.jsp?a=EG0850092852292M263048940Y&product_id=

Hummingbirds getting bigger then their nest.

Here's the turkey.

Now I have to find the one of him typing.

Of course I'm wide awake now.

See what happens when you sleep all day. Duh, your up all night. I hope I do fall asleep eventually. TV isn't that great right now and I really don't feel like doing anything that would require me moving off my sofa.

Still hyper as hell.

It's another day and I still can't stop my heart from racing. I hate this feeling. I wish I knew what I could do to calm down, but that is something that is not in my makeup. My brain feels like a commercial sized washing machine stuck on the SPIN cycle. I have so many things going on up there and can't seem to get a thing done. If only I could stop this cycle and put everything on delicate. I don't think any amount of medicine is going to make that happen. I have so many things that I need to get done.

Today My Mind Is Racing Faster Then My Body

OK so I took all my meds. as I do everyday, and my heart is pounding out of my DD chest. My brain is on over drive and my fingers are clumsy. Does anyone else know that feeling? It is a horrible way to start your day. I have so much to do today and I just can't seem to get anything done. I want to, I really do. Maybe if I work out earlier then planned I could come down a bit? Hmmmmmmmmmmm.
Nawww. I really don't want to leave the house at this moment. I have too many things to get done. I just want to be able to enjoy those things that I need to get done. Dang. I hate this feeling. Well on a better note the yarn finally came in for our contest winners. Yay. It took forever. I am so happy to be able to give them their winnings. I hate having loose strings with anything. Well i guess for now I will just slow it down a notch and try my best not to F*ck up to many things that I touch today. Peace

The swap is on it's way.

Well today I mailed off my swap goody box. Plus I sent my other moderator a yarn package as well. I am so thanksful to have such great friends on raverly and the greatest are the two people who help me to moderate our adhdknitting group. I couldn't do it without them. Thanks girls. I hope that they like what I sent. I always worry that it is never enough. It is hard to put a price on all that they do for our group. So here's a shout out to Kenyetta and Teri. Love ya girls.